Scrappy

After 4 months of chatting in class in front of the lecturers, the devil-may-care attitude, totally no concerns until the day arrives, the play-and-study days in Hong Kong, and certainly the really really last minute work, I got my results.

Just 1 word: RELIEVED.

Honestly telling you, this is my worst results EVER since I entered college. EVER.

But in fact, I feel the happiest and the most satisfying.

Okay I may be a content person as many of you would know me, but all these while I DO show lots of concern in my exams. But this time I knew, certain things are not in my hands.

In fact, I am really happy to scrap through, as my business plan and the Hong Kong trip really took a lot of my time away. I do not wish to find excuses for myself, but it's so easy to be distracted especially when you are into something big. =)

Especially the Hong Kong trip, if I see it in a bad way, the trip came at the worst time possible as it's just the week before exam, but if I look at it positively, it came at an almost perfect timing as only my MA paper was deferred, and with this kind of result in the end, I feel comfortable. To be honest, how to put 100% of your mind when you are in the middle of a trip?

So, I am satisfied. I do not wish to compare myself with others. Say what you want whether I am bright or not, I am never a bright student anyway. For those of you who already got fantastic results but still not satisfied, please think of people around you.

Of course I am not saying going for the best is wrong, but sometimes, a lot of others would want what you already dislike. Also, you think you put in effort, and not getting what you deserved is heartache, but actually sometimes things are out of your control.

The same goes to how you handle life. Over the past few weeks my pastor has been talking about how to handle your life when things seem to be against you. Learn to appreciate what you have, as others may not even dare to dream of having. God is fair as He gives you up and downs.

I had mine too.

Also, if you can see things in both perspectives, the world would be brighter for you. =)