Uncertainty

It was a Monday blues today.

Everything seemed to slow and motionless. Chong Wei and Malaysians' hopes were gone as he had a meltdown in a terrible final yesterday, soundly beaten by Lin Dan. Not too harsh on him as he still has a silver medal, but he could have fought in a MUCH better manner.

3 hours after that disappointing match, another solemn moment came as MU just managed a draw against Newcastle, a team they so loved to win in the past.

A supposingly good night was ruined =S

Sleepiness clouded my day today as I just had 3 hours of sleep. The birthday girl will know why =P

The low-concentration level did not help at all as I could not absorb nuts in ICBM lecture today. I had a feeling it's almost the same thing as what happened to me in F&I last semester, as I left it so last minute to understand everything. Lol.

Moreover, I got a terrible scare just.

I stayed back at college after ICBM to wait for my dad as he said he will pass by the area. Somehow the boredomness made my fingers type the MyUnisa link to check my deferred MA results.

When I reached the results section, I still see the blardee "F2" there, but initially there was another column left empty for this subject. In another words, there were two lines of the subject name initially, with one of them having a "F2" written beside it.

But just now, there was ONLY ONE LINE.

I seriously got very scared, and suddenly my mind was clouded with plenty of nonsense and concerns. I stoned for a few seconds, then I rushed to the Exam Unit to confirm if it's the end result. Of course, my mind that time was totally blank. I did remember Mr. Lim, my MA lecturer saying the results will be out in at least a month though.

Thank God, it wasn't the end result, according to the Exam Unit staffs. Officially, this part of the floor is the place I would never want to go to, especially for wrong reasons.

But, this is just the beginning. After that moment, I really can't expect a lot, in fact I have every reasons to be worried about. I feared, and I really did. My heart pumped REALLY hard. I can imagine the disastrous ending happening to me if what happened today is a reality.

I'm really lying if I say that I won't be worried about this. In fact, it's quite a nightmare every passing day.

God, help me.