Deep Thought

I had a good thought on myself today, and I realized I have not been the person I should be. I feel like I have not been showing the right kind of appreciation towards what I had or having, or in another words, taking things for granted. For that, my attitude could have offended a lot of people without me knowing, especially :

Jesus
The almighty who had changed my life in so many ways, in fact without him, I think i could end up in the wrong place by now. I truly regret how I have been avoided facing Him in the past with the thought that I could manage everything by my own. The truth is, I was SO wrong. Thankfully I was guided by my pastor and cell group members who had been very supportive in me accepting Christ, though I still feel incomplete as He has performed so many miracles before right in front of my eyes. Who would die at the cross for people He didn't even know?

Family
All these while lots of things happened in my family, notably a scar which could never be forgotten. Somehow I ended up being the only hope of the family even though I am the youngest. Guess lots of times I have disappointed my parents as again, I did not fulfill my responsibility to repay them who had laboured for so many of my welfares, education especially. I used to blame them on their harsh words on me at times, but I know they are showing concerns towards me. Dad and mom, I'm so sorry.

Close Friends + College friends + Church friends
No one can live without friends, and certainly. I see my friends as God's gift in many ways. My church friends, who have been guiding me towards the path of Christ. College friends, needless to say, I LOVE YOU GUYS. Back over 2 years ago, I often wonder what kind of friends I would get before I entered college. Somehow I was fated to be with a group of friends who have showed me countinuous concerns and care, not forgetting the help I'm getting from them even though I did not ask for. I felt bad as I only take and rarely offered them help really, and one thing I need to change, is that I can get emo sometimes, scaring them in the way. But they still approach me and ask me if I'm all right, that alone is enough for me to feel like dropping my tears, especially for a guy who can't really hold back his emotions. Also, my life will be incomplete without my closest friends around me. The advice and encouragements given, I don't know how to thank you, except for correcting my own attitude and show more concerns to you guys in return. And how could I forget you. =)

All right thunder is coming I need to go. Thanks once again! =D

And I still don't have a clue how JJ spotted my blog! wow thanks for ur comment JJ!